Headaches, Hang-ups, and Hope...

At the end of a day of a very *blah* headache day for my middle child and for me, I got a phone call from a new friend.

I skipped answering the cell phone, since I don't get names to go along with the number...besides, who called that I actually was interested in talking to without already being saved in my phone? Well, when the land line rang, I realized it wasn't a wrong number - only a select few are privileged enough for that number :-) I absolutely HATE sales calls, and I've been fairly successful this past year; but I digress.

My phone call was to invite me to tag along getting together with a couple other women from church - something I want to do, but don't initiate - I would say it's my cluttered living area that makes me that way, but it isn't. I usually just don't have the energy to follow through with preparation and clean-up, so I avoid it. I'm not sure how many things I ignored today because of my headache and trying to help my son feel better - bless his heart. No child should hurt.

So my challenge is to force myself to get the kids off, then get my act and a Bible together before noon.

At the end of my call, I was questioned about the loss of my keyboard - I'm getting something to practice on! I don't know any special specs except that I need a stand and a/c adapter.

I asked for God to drop a keyboard in my lap so I could practice and get more comfortable so I don't drive myself and fellow band members nuts - just writing this makes me want to tell myself to get a grip already! One of the other players said "You say that every week" - the flipping out part - and it really hit hard! I knew I was always anxious about doing a good job, but I had no idea how much it showed - I felt awful! I don't want that at all - I want to HELP and be a relief, not a burden...so hopefully having some kind of tool on hand will allow my fingers do the walking - to the right notes and chords to make music for my God. My friend will never know what she's doing for me and for everyone I play with and for - just for being willing to share what she doesn't use - serendipitous is the word that comes to mind...so Thank You - you know who you are!